Grief

Loss: Cee’s Chronic Illness

WARNING: Emotional Honesty Being Practiced Here

I believe in the Grief Recovery Method so much that I not only teach it, but I practice it in my own life.  The biggest incomplete loss I have is that concerns the decades of my life surrounding Lyme Disease.  It is a huge topic for me, with many, many kinds of losses.  Up until now, I have not wanted to tackle it because I needed to know that I am on the verge of life instead of the verge of death.  I needed to know there would be another tomorrow.  Chris and I were ready for me to die.  And yet, I somehow always had the strength to stay alive.  In this past year, I have truly come to know I am now healthy.  I need to work on my loss issues to regain control of my life.

I’ve charted out my health history and already noticed patterns of illness in my life. This last week has been a rough one for me. I felt, lonely, powerless, ashamed, unhappy, exhausted, and hopeless.

On Monday, I’m going to start working Cari Dawson on my loss history for Lymes Disease.  So we will start working through those.  I don’t know where this journey will take me, but I will give you an update from time to time.  One of my favorite teachers always says, “Words don’t teach, only life experience teaches.”  I’ll be sharing my life experiences so that I can become a better teacher and also encourage you to start or continue your own journey through the losses in your life.

What I am intending to see at the end of this work is that my soul is lighter, my mind is clearer, and the smile has come back onto my face.

To be continued …

Hugs,

Cee

email:  cee@cee-chris.com

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  1. Healing thoughts coming your way. I live with intractable migraines and endometriosis so I can really relate to your journey. I’m curious about this process you are going through. I wish you well and I’m hoping to learn somethings that can help me, too. Thanks for sharing

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  2. Hugs indeed. I am in awe of your ability to keep going in such a positive way when life has been so unbelievably tough for you. I hope for really positive things from your about-to-start programme. Good luck!

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    • Thanks Margaret for the hugs. I’m already starting to feel the benefits of working through loss. I can only imagine this will only make me feel better and better. Thanks for commenting.

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    • It’s only since the end of January, this year, that I really know that the Lyme Disease is really out of my body. I just have to clean up the baggage it left behind. The physical, emotional and spiritual damage. Judy, you have always been a true friend to me. 😀

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  3. I was wondering how your recovery was going – and your post here reminds me of the “process” as that quote about experience as teacher is so true. Well sometimes we learn and get wisdom from reading and observing and just living – but other times experience sculpts, shapes, kicks our butt, and really shakes us up. And your healing journey has already had some amazing fruits that i can see – like keep in mind that you likely would not have blogged the way you did if you had not had Lyme.
    I mean, you might have been out and about clicking pics for some job!
    and all the people that note how your challenges helped them or looped them in – and still do – well part of your life detour has led to this amazing Blog path and I think that is a very good thing.
    Further, you raise awareness for Lyme infection – and sadly, so many people have it and just accept demise and I like how you have tried natural things and just keep exploring.
    And best wishes on your healing from the loss – and even the trauma associated with such an affliction – and sending hugs to you both.
    🙂

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  4. Hi Yvette, thanks so much for your kind words. I do have to agree with you regarding my blog, if I had not had it, I wouldn’t have had my photography blog. I do get so much satisfaction and joy out of it. I don’t have words to put it in place. I also doubt if I would be working with people who suffer from loss and want to work through a process to get joy and peace back in their lives. You’ve been on this journey with me for awhile and I’m thrilled you are a part of it. Thanks.

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  5. It is brave of you to share your story with us – and I am sure that it will be inspiring. It is so important that we share our losses with others, isn’t it? I think it helps to complete our own healing.

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  6. Lyme disease is horrible. I don’t have it, but lots do. You seem to always be so upbeat and positive, hard to believe you have such a terrible disease. I guess that is a big part of healing isn’t it? Positive thinking. Wishing you good health and happiness.

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  7. I am glad you wrote this. I never would have thought about the baggage people carry after winning the battle. Good to know that there is another side to having recovered. All the best to you, Cee.

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  8. Beautiful and inspiring words Cee. Your posts have always been incredibly motivating, but today you have surpassed. Thank you so much for your honesty, and sending lots of hugs, smiles and happy thoughts. You and Chris are transforming lives, creating a lasting legacy and the world is such a better place for having you both in it. Really hope I will have the honour of meeting you both in person one of these days xxx

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  9. You have chosen to follow the only correct route , it seems , facing life with complete awareness and acceptance , taking profit from your experience and helping other people to carry out their own difficulties….
    Lots of hugs to both of you,
    A.

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  10. I can’t push the ‘like’ button because I don’t like that you’ve had to deal with Lyme. It’s a terrible thing and I’m so glad you’re feeling better now. I hope you are able to work through your losses, and continue to get stronger.

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    • Hi Dawn, I have no doubt I will continue to feel even better as I work through some of my grief issues. I wouldn’t be able to teach other people if I haven’t experienced the wonderful benefits myself. Thanks so much for commenting.

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  11. Our lives comprises of several journeys. Some don’t mean a lot while some not only changes us, when we embark on them, but also those around us. On such journeys, we can’t just rely on our own strength but also of those who love us.
    I wish you lots of happiness and good health 🙂

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  12. Thank you so much for sharing what you’ve gone through. Everyone tells me how great things will be when I get better, but your perspective is awesome because it comes with it’s own set of problems. I’m so grateful you are better. My lyme turned into an encephalopathy, so no turning back, but I am always cheering for those who win the battle Hugs & 🙂

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